Im actually surprised they’re still on here.
I don’t really talk to that joseph dude anymore. After cutting him out of my life, my mental health has improved a lot.
Can I say that he was there to share some beliefs I held? Yeah.
But honestly he took some things way too far. Long story short, after a couple years.. I was in absolute shambles and barely holding myself together. Two years of gaslighting, and abuse. I’m not the same person I was. And that’s okay.
I’m better now. I’m glad im still around.
I was hyperfixated ( which he exploited) on a ficticious life I lived out in lucid dreams. I would sleep away two weeks at a time. Wake up with a splitting migraine because of the excess sleeping, pop allergy meds to induce drowsiness, take ibuprofen to deal with the migraine, and then keep doing it.
Whenever I would tell him what had happened in what i believed to be out of body events at the time, it would be twisted and I would be criminilazied and he would have me believing that i was a murderer out of body.. And that because of this, my marriage with a being, the only fucking thing that mattered to me at the time, was on thin ice.
He kept me in this terrified anguish for two years.
I was worn down, exhausted, and desperately clinging onto, and pouring out my heart to the only thing that mattered to me.
I told my friends I wanted to die daily. Because in my mind at the time, dying would mean I get to be by the side of the being I loved at the time.
My friends eventually stepped in, and told me what Joseph had me believing in, wasn’t real.
I chose me.
I was done, absolutely fucking fed up with this bullshit treatment by this dude.
So I left it all behind. All of it.
If i kept walking down that road, I would have snuffed myself out.
I liberated myself.
So there you go, you’re all caught up.